I just love this honest and candid reflection on this Mama’s first pregnancy and induction, and how that’s impacted her second pregnancy. I’ll let her start with her reflections and then share her experience at 14 Weeks Pregnant this time around.
My first pregnancy I was really sick until 23 weeks and got into a really bad headspace.
I wasn’t excited, I felt so guilty and then felt I’d be punished, and something would happen to the baby. It was ridiculous but I couldn’t help it.
As soon as the sickness lifted, it was like I could see clearly and it made a huge difference.
Towards the end of my pregnancy, Olivia dropped from the 35th percentile at 32 weeks to the 11th at 36 weeks. so from then I was in hospital multiple times a week being monitored. I found the communication was shocking. I’d be sent home, then called back – being abused for leaving. It was ridiculous and very stressful.
Olivia’s heart rate was up and down and when I was home I could barely sleep, just making sure I could feel her move.
At 38 weeks I was induced, they decided she was better to be monitored on the outside. Three days of being induced and I was exhausted. They tried everything! I ended up having a Caesarian Section. We were both calm and relaxed, Livi’s heart and mine were fine but it was a failure and we decided to just move forward.
She was born at a tiny 2.4kg! Perfect and healthy, Just small. It wasn’t a bad birth, it was just long and tiring. – she’s now 95th percentile and perfectly chunky!
This pregnancy, I’ve opted for an elective C-section, and will be interesting to see how the baby grows. I’m not nervous. I like the idea of knowing exactly when the baby is coming. I think my headspace is so much better with this sickness because I now know the end result is so worth it. Olivia lights up our world and we just can’t get enough of her. I didn’t know I could love something so much it hurts.
The idea of a second child… and of that love doubling. I don’t know how my heart won’t just explode or ache for all eternity!! We just can’t wait!
14 Weeks Pregnant – Baby is the size of a peach!
My Weight – 95.4kg
Cravings – salty chips and potato!
I’ve been feeling… Over it! I have a 8 month old daughter, and being this sick and tired is awful. I feel I can’t give her my whole self because I have to take it easy.
I’m most excited about… meeting the little bean. I just want to know what it looks like!!
I’m most nervous about… sleepless nights again.
I’m starting to think about… names and nursery decorations.
The worst symptoms have been… headaches, sickness and exhaustion.
The best part of my week has been… a HSP for lunch – its the small things!
When I wonder about the gender… I think it will be lovely for my little one to have a little sister but would also be nice to have one of eac. we find out in two weeks what we are having!
How I’m going with diet, exercise, sleep, stress and other health goals... health goals are a little out the window right now. Lockdown (Melbourne) doesn’t help but also I’m surviving not thriving right now.
If I could say anything to my baby right now it would be: I cannot wait to meet you, all this is so worth it.
If after reading this you’d be happy to share your own experience of pregnancy, please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org to send you one of these pages (or you can send a photo of your own pregnancy journal pages).